Monday, February 27, 2006 4 reflections

Beads of sweat and a bruised pride



It was too tempting to resist. Something so unique that only a fool would let it pass him by. And I am no fool…so I took it.

A little history lesson first. It has been more than a decade since I have played regular cricket. By regular I mean more than three people (including both teams), a leather ball (not the tennis one), a proper ground (not the driveway of my house in Bangalore) and decent bowling (not my brother yelling an “Out! He is gone!” when a flower pot in our garden ‘catches’ a ball. We had an agreement that due to lack of fielders we would let our pots do the needful. So what if they cannot move? They can still catch, right? Of course, the scolding we got from our mother later for ruining her garden is another story). When I moved to Latin America all hopes I had of meeting Indians took a hit. When I managed to salvage that dream by meeting some desis here and there, my other fancy called ‘cricket’ took a major nosedive as well. The American continent is all about baseball. A close second is basketball. There is no such thing as cricket here. The only thing they know (or would like to know) about the game is that it goes on for five long days and there is a chance no one might win. As much as I go red in the face many times explaining to these “interested folk” that my favorite … no…my religion is the One-Day Internationals and not the test matches, I also realize that I am wasting my time with them since they do not care. Fair enough. Their game is big for them and ours is Herculean to us.

I missed many glorious catches and matches in this six year (and still on going) exile of mine. I missed India hammer good old rivals Pakistan to pulp. I missed India’s “wake up call” entry into the World Cup 2003 finals against Australia. I missed Lakshmipathy Balaji’s smile-and-kill strategy to break batsmen’s spines. I missed Mahendra Singh Dhoni’s heroic ways of getting India her much deserved success. All I really got to do was the always appealing “refresh page” option on nameless web pages that promised to tell me minute by minute scores. That the team had already won or lost a half an hour before the scores got updated is again another story.

Now that you have understood where I stand with regards to my love and passion for this game, let us get back to my story.

A bunch of well-dressed Indians in this India-deprived country decided to play cricket at a place near my apartment. They usually use the city’s sports club but apparently there was too much red-tape to cross and curious on-lookers to please so they decided to choose a more quieter and less populated (read no one around) field. I got a whiff of this news through a common American colleague so I invited myself to the game by showing up on time and greeting everyone with a smile. The players arrived. I had always wondered how they would play the game on Astroturf (a special kind of artificial grass matte) since I did not know if leather balls worked on it. Surprise! Surprise! It did. Not only did it bounce more than expected but also spun on occasion. The two vital points of a good bowling attack.

I was not sure how well these people played but I was in for a delightful treat nonetheless. Before I could realize what was going on, we were two teams with about 5 players on each side and I was captaining one of them. The batsman padded up (abdomen guard included) and got ready to whack the red around. I had always wanted to play in an almost-real game like this one so I was really looking forward to this event. One of the players on my team asked me “Can you bowl?” to which I said to myself “Hmm…I wonder that myself...” before telling him “Yes. I manage…”

We played two matches each spanning ten and eight overs respectively.

Little did I know that managing a six-ball over would require more than just wonderment and mental technique. I got the second over to bowl and it somehow translated into a 10-ball over. Oh…I did not mention the fact that I gifted the opposite team three continuous and spectacular wide balls. I could almost see the other players rolling their eyes at each other at my rather amusing display of what I called 'bowling attack'. Somehow I managed to finish what seemed like a never ending chain of bad events and needless to say, I never got to bowl after that. While I went back to my fielding position short of breathe and a missing wing of pride, I could not help but reflect on what I had imagined and what had actually just taken place.

Ok. Phase one of my interesting little adventure seemed to be over. When the players did not so much as look at me for a second spell, I realized my bowling days were pretty much done with. I will have to look forward to a better day to pick up the same.

Phase two began. I was placed between silly point and point to the right handed batsmen. For the most part I had nothing much to do except ‘react’ when the ball was nowhere near me. But one neat thing I always managed was when the ball did occasionally roll past me I held on to it and even managed a run-out of sorts. So if not anything, those strangers will hopefully acknowledge my fielding ability.

The last and only phase of this game – batting began. Growing up I was not the best of batsman but I always managed to keep a good track record. I made an excellent wicket keeper in school and college since I had a knack of not letting anything pass me by. This made me the obvious choice for the keeper’s role and I must admit, I had some excellent games. I remember being carried away from the field as I ran out the last batsman in a crucial final against our rival college. As a batsman, however, I was in the second half of the line up. Considering it has been more than a decade since I faced real bowling…I am sure you will not be surprised when I was caught at silly point the very first ball I faced in this match. I could not believe this for a moment! Without any practice whatsoever and without any other choice, I requested the players to consider that a ‘trial ball’. The other players in that team, not aware of my history with the game, very reluctantly obliged as if they had just given way to a major scam! At this point I realized, judging by their reactions, that some of them took such simple and friendly matches too seriously. Once one of them started cursing very eloquently in Hindi, I knew what I was playing with. A couple of balls later I got out again as I tried to hook it on the on-side but found a fielder instead.

The one good thing I did figure out was that I connected every ball I faced. A very bad batsman would have either got out stumped or worse – considering I only had the left pad on and no abdomen guard.

We lost the first match by a rather wide margin. The second one was better, considering I did not bowl and fielded when required. I even managed to score a run before being caught again. That is progress as far as I am concerned – no runs scored the first game and scored one in the next one.

As I walked to sip a drink of water one of the regulars to the team said “So you haven’t been playing much, huh?” I was a little disturbed with his tone but smiled and said “No. It has been more years than I can remember.” I also added a “Besides these flower pots move!” before walking away from a weird reaction on his face.

Of course, looking past the sympathetic eyes and “we have to let him bat since he is the only one left” body language, I managed to have a pretty good day actually. I got my much needed exercise and was part of something so different from the routine I am used to. I shook hands with almost every one with a “Good game, guys” and a smile as I walked off the ground since it was time to go.

I came back to my apartment to a nice hot shower and some crisp coffee. I called up home and told my folks about it with no major enthusiasm in their responses. Specially my mother considering she still has not-so-found memories of her beloved plants getting injured while fielding for me and my brother.

I woke up today to a sour shoulder and aches in places I had forgotten existed.

Beads of sweat and a slightly bruised pride – this was my first cricket outing after what seems like a million years.

I look forward to meeting them all again next Sunday and hoping to score two or maybe even three (keeping fingers crossed!) runs this time. After all, progress is life is it not?


ShaKri

Friday, February 24, 2006 2 reflections

namma kathe (an ode to friendship)



Inspired by an idea given by Archana, I penned this small Kannada poem to showcase 10 years of an amazing roller-coaster of a journey of friendship I have had with Chikki and Sidd. We met for the first time in 1996 and have since continued to grow closer every passing day and with each passing love affair. My control on written Kannada is not the best so if people notice any mistakes grammatically, then please let me know.

ಇದು ನಮ್ಮ ಕಥೆ,
ಇದು ನಮ್ಮ ಕನಸುಗಳ ಕಥೆ,
ನಮ್ಮ ಜೀವನದಲ್ಲಿ ಚಿರಕಾಲ ಉಳಿದ ಕಥೆ,
ನಮ್ಮ ಮನಸ್ಸುಗಳನ್ನು ಒಂದು ಮಾಡಿದ ಕಥೆ.

ಹಲವಾರು ಮುಖಗಳನ್ನು ಮಾತನಾಡಿಸಿ,
ಒಂದು ಅಸ್ತಿತ್ವವನ್ನು ಹುಡುಕಾಡುತ್ತ,
ನೂರಾರು ದಿನಗಳು ಒಂಟಿಯಾಗಿದ್ದು,
ಕೊನೆಗೆ ಸಂಧಿಸಿದ ನಮ್ಮ ಕಣ್ಣುಗಳ ಕಥೆ.

ಜೀವನದ ಮುಖ್ಯ ಪಯಣದ ದಿನಗಳು ಅಲ್ಲಿ,
ನಕ್ಕು ನಲಿದು ಕೊನೆ ಕಾಣದ ಮದ್ದಿನಲ್ಲಿ,
ಹಾಡುಗಳ ರಂಗಿನಲ್ಲಿ, ಮಾತುಗಳ ಗುಂಗಿನಲ್ಲಿ,
ಪ್ರೇಮವನ್ನು ಹುಡುಕಾಡುವ ಆಟಗಾರರಾಗಿ,
ಗೆದ್ದು ಸೋತು ಬದುಕಿದ ನಮ್ಮ ಕಥೆ.

ಹುಡುಗರಾಗಿ ಸೇರಿದ ನಾವು ಬೆಳೆಯುವ ಕಾಲವದು,
ಓದು ಬರಹದ ನೆಪದಲ್ಲಿ ಕುಣಿದಾಡುವ ಶಾಲೆಯದು,
ಪ್ರತಿದಿನವೊಂದು ನೂತನ ವಿಷಯದಲ್ಲಿ ಮುಳುಗುವ ಜಾಲವದು,
ಆ ಜಾಲದಲ್ಲಿ ಏದ್ದು ಬಿದ್ದು ಬದುಕಿದ ನಮ್ಮ ಕಥೆ.

ಸ್ನೇಹದ ಹೆಸರಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದಾದೆವು ನಾವು ಮೂರು ಜನ,
ಪ್ರೇಮದ ಕೆಸರಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಜಾರಿದೆವು ಪ್ರತಿ ದಿನ,
ಅರಿತು ಕಲಿತು ಕುಳಿತು ಬೆರೆತು,
ಇಂದು ಕೂಡ ಒಂದಾಗಿರುವುದು ನಮ್ಮ ಮನ.

ಹತ್ತು ವರುಷಗಳ ಈ ಅಮೋಘ ಸಂಬಂಧ,
ಮೇಲೆ ಕೆಳಗೆ ಹೋಗಿ ಬಂದ ನಮ್ಮ ಅನುಬಂಧ,
ಯಾರು ಕಾಣದ ಜೀವನ ಕಂಡೆವು ನಾವೆಲ್ಲ,
ದೇಹ ಮೂರಾದರು ಪ್ರಾಣ ಒಂದಾದ
ನಮ್ಮ ಕಥೆ.

ಇದು ನಮ್ಮ ಕಥೆ,
ನಮ್ಮ ಕನಸುಗಳ ಕಥೆ.


ShaKri
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 5 reflections

Reflections of Hope

This is my friend Sidd in Ooty recently. When he shared this image with me yesterday night I could not help but ponder on this piece. Although taken as a regular photograph, this image spoke to me somehow. The setting, the background, the railway track, Sidd's pose, attire, the sunglasses, the half-smile expression...everything made this photograph too good to resist experimenting with. Hence, I designed this artistic impression(wallpaper sized) of the original photo of Sidd.

So what is it that I saw? Well...there is a sense of hidden optimism in this photograph. The railway tracks seem to denote the journey a boy has taken into becoming the man he is today. The colorful background while shining through to the naked eye, hides behind the half-open eyes of the protagonist who seems to hold so many untold stories in them. The outlook, though appealing, projects a sense of positive stride despite the pitfalls he has seen in life. The gaze, though obscure, helps him look towards an uncertain yet positive future. This and much more is what I found in this otherwise simple looking photograph.

Excellent photograph Sidd. One of it's kind really bhai.

ShaKri
Sunday, February 19, 2006 2 reflections

ShaKri's Homonyms



First things first. The origin of this idea came from a dear friend Mrs.Rajeshwari Rao about four years ago. We were once traveling to some place and she mentioned how there are so many words in the Español(Spanish) language that sound exactly the same as in Kannada and Hindi. I always wondered about the connection there and this is an attempt to list out the homonyms (similar sounding words) in my customized fashion. If others can think of a word that is not on this list then please feel free to let me know about it and I shall include it here with due credit to you. Gracias!




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Español word/meaning:
mina meaning - mine , as in Gold mine
Kannada word/meaning:
mInu (written as ಮೀನ/ಮೀನು)
Meaning - Fish
Courtesy: Mrs.Rajeshwari Rao, Bangalore
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Español word/meaning:
beca meaning - Scholarship
Kannada word/meaning:
bEka (written as ಬೇಕ)
Meaning - Wanted (asked as a question)/Would you like?
Courtesy: Mrs.Rajeshwari Rao, Bangalore
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Español word/meaning:
copa meaning - Cup
Kannada word/meaning:
kOpa (written as ಕೋಪ)
Meaning - Anger, Rage, Fury
Courtesy: Mrs.Rajeshwari Rao, Bangalore
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Español word/meaning:
Rama meaning - Branch of a tree
Kannada word/meaning:
rAmA (written as ರಾಮ)
Meaning - A popular name in India after Lord Ramachandra.
Courtesy: Mrs.Rajeshwari Rao, Bangalore
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Español word/meaning:
Sala meaning - Living Room
Kannada word/meaning:
sAla (written as ಸಾಲ)
Meaning - a loan
Hindi word/meaning:
saala (written as साला)
Meaning - Wife's brother
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Español word/meaning:
Mala meaning - Bad, Evil
Kannada/Hindi word/meaning:
mAla (written as ಮಾಲ and माला)
Meaning - a garland
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Español word/meaning:
Bala meaning - Bullet
Kannada word/meaning:
bAla (written as ಬಾಲ)
Meaning - a tail
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Español word/meaning:
Bola meaning - Ball
Hindi word/meaning:
bOla (written as बॊला)
Meaning - he said (masculine word)
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Español word/meaning:
Mani meaning - the peanut
Kannada word/meaning:
maNi (written as ಮಣಿ)
Meaning - bead
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Español word/meaning:
Asta meaning - the flag pole
Kannada word/meaning:
asta (written as ಅಸ್ತ)
Meaning - setting down, commonly used in 'sunset'
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Español word/meaning:
Ya Vaa! meaning - wait! hang on!
Kannada word/meaning:
yaava (written as ಯಾವ)
Meaning - which one? which?
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Español word/meaning:
cala meaning - a white flower
Hindi word/meaning:
kaala (written as काला)
Meaning - Black
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Español word/meaning:
salvar meaning - to save, saved
Hindi word/meaning:
salwaar (written as सल्वार)
Meaning - A traditional North Indian dress worn with Kameez (कमीज़)
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Español word/meaning:
hota meaning - the letter 'J'
Hindi word/meaning:
hOtaa (written as हॊता)
Meaning - Happens,
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Español word/meaning:
avara meaning - stingy woman
Hindi word/meaning:
aawara (written as आवारा)
Meaning - Vagabond, Homeless, Shelterless person
Kannada word/meaning:
avara (written as ಆವರ)
Meaning - theirs, something that belongs to someone else
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Español word/meaning:
ayuda meaning - help, aid
Kannada word/meaning:
aayudha (written as DAiÀÄÄzsÀ)
Meaning - Weapon, Tool of defense.
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Español word/meaning:
doce meaning - twelve (12)
Kannada word/meaning:
dOse (written as zÉÆøÉ)
Meaning - Cake, Muffin, Popular eatable in South India.
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Español word/meaning:
porque meaning - why and because
Kannada word/meaning:
porake (written as ¥ÉÇgÀPÉ)
Meaning - Broomstick, Broom
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Español word/meaning:
loca meaning - crazy, insane
Kannada word/meaning:
lOka (written as ¯ÉÆÃPÀ)
Meaning - World, Universe
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Español word/meaning:
tu meaning - you
Hindi word/meaning:
tu (written as तु)
Meaning - You (singular)
Kannada word/meaning:
thu! (written as xÀÆ!)
Meaning - An expression to denote disgust or tiredness.
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Español word/meaning:
cita meaning - appointment, date
Hindi and Kannada word/meaning:
Sita (written as सीता and ಸೀತಾ)
Meaning - a name associated with Lord Rama's wife. Common in India for a female name.
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Español word/meaning:
mira meaning - look, see
Hindi and Kannada word/meaning:
Meera (written as मीरा and ಮೀರ)
Meaning - a name associated with Lord Krishna's famous devotee. Common in India for a female name.
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Español word/meaning:
hasta meaning - until, till the time
Hindi and Kannada word/meaning:
Hasta (written as हस्ता and ºÀ¸ÀÛ)
Meaning - hand, palm
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Español word/meaning:
moda meaning - fashion, style, mode
Kannada word/meaning:
mODa (written as ಮೋಡ)
Meaning - a cloud
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Español word/meaning:
boda meaning - wedding, marriage ceremony
Kannada word/meaning:
bODa (written as ಬೋಡ)
Meaning - a bald man (masculine word)
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Español word/meaning:
cada meaning - each, every
Kannada word/meaning:
kada (written as PÀzÀ)
Meaning - door
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Español word/meaning:
araña meaning - spider
Hindi and Kannada word/meaning:
aranyaa (written as अरण्य and CgÀtå)
Meaning - forest, jungle
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Español word/meaning:
cama meaning - bed
Hindi and Kannada word/meaning:
kaama (written as काम and PÁªÀÄ)
Meaning - lust, sexual pleasure
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More coming soon. Watch this space.

ShaKri

Wednesday, February 15, 2006 2 reflections

World Press Photo Exhibit

World Press Photo is run as an independent, non-profit organization with its office in Amsterdam, the Netherlands, where World Press Photo was founded in 1955. The organization is controlled by an independent management board and employs around 20 permanent staff members. The Amsterdam office acts as the hub for a network of professional contacts worldwide. The cooperation and assistance of people in this international network makes organizing the contest, exhibitions and other activities on such a large scale possible.

They were running a photo exhibit recently in the city and I had the opportunity to visit it. I had never been to one of their photo galleries before and so while on the one hand some images there shocked me, there were others that made ponder about the world we live in. As I walked from one shocking and thought provoking photograph to another, I could not help but reflect on some of my recent experiences. The animosity, hostility and meaningless banter that all of us go through tirelessly day in and day out seemed like a mockery of life itself. If a photograph is worth a thousand words, then each of these photographs depicted the life and times of civilization itself. The brutality, the helplessness, the cry for the invisible omni-present was so crystal clear that it made me feel naked and ashamed. Ashamed of the life we all lead in our own little comfort zones painstackingly finding fault with everyone else but ourselves. We cry for justice when someone breaks our heart, but where is that justice for these people who seem to be a part of a culture that none of us can ever come close to imagining? A culture bred by terror. A culture that threatens to wipe out the very existence of love and harmony on this unique planet of ours. These thoughts left me weak and numb at a certain point.

Other significant photographs displayed in this exhibit spoke of courage and the willingness to live. There was one stunning photograph of a swimmer diving into the pool with no legs to aid his effort. I wish I could see his face and bow my head to salute him for celebrating the human spirit. There was another instance where they showcased the brilliant artwork of Mother Nature in the animal planet. The vibrant collection of colors made me appreciate and thank the heavens for blessing us with what we have.

I leave you with these thoughts and images to reflect upon. Maybe you too will find a space in your heart for someone else for a change.

ShaKri

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Friday, February 10, 2006 0 reflections

My designs at DiscoverBangalore.com

Graphic design has been my new found hobby for almost 2 years now. I self taught myself a lot of applications including FireWorks and Photoshop. DiscoverBangalore.com is a website that showcases the best Bangalore has to offer. In collaboration with the administrator of that website, I contributed a few of my Kannada-based designs.

These designs are pretty generic in their presentation and can be used for all occasions. The collection promises to grow as more cards are designed and posted.

Feel free to visit them all at http://www.discoverbangalore.com/postcards.html and start sharing the good wishes around the world.


ShaKri
Sunday, February 05, 2006 2 reflections

Surviving Valentine

efore you move on thinking this is one more love-lost romantic’s pathetic little write up…let me assure you that it is not. I believe in love. I have fallen in love. I know all there is to know about its existence. How can anyone not? With so much “spread the love” messages being thrust in our faces and throats day in and day out! The old adage of “one can run, but one can definitely not hide” is actually true. And this undeniable existence of love in today’s world is unreal as well.

The saint is back again. Good lord! Get over yourself! Not Claus. The other guy. The one who arrives between New Years and Christmas to remind the world that love is all around. Whatziz name….oh ya…Valentine. I don’t have a problem with this day. Not because I don’t have a girlfriend’s face to suck on all day or go berserk shopping for items I know she will hate (or love…of course we all know they fake it). In fact I have no qualms about Valentines Day whatsoever. People want to go out shopping…hey! Go ahead! People want to express their undying love to their beloved ones…please be my guest. In fact if you leave a letter in my inbox I might just send you a nice little card. And no. I am not being sarcastic at all. People who know me will vouch that I can go to any lengths when it comes to love. True love.

Then what is my write up about? It is how people start behaving once they realize they are on the “will get some tonight” list. Suddenly everyone around them is possibly the biggest loser in the world. If you do not wear pink, white or any combination of these two then you are not supposed to have the “spirit” of Valentines Day. Give me a break. I am from India for God’s sake. No one knows what the spirit of love is more than we do. Just check the world population and you will realize if it is indeed true that St. Valentine is the official messenger of love in the world then he has two residences in Bangalore and definitely one main office in Mumbai. Chances are he shoots those little cupid-sent arrows across the seven seas sitting in an outsourced little air-conditioned office. So don’t make a fool of yourself by telling me I don’t have understanding of love. It is a different thing if you want to make yourself look better in front of your girl/guy since chances are this is your only shot. So go right ahead.

The day also marks a Herculean milestone in the world economy. The day sees billions of dollars (I am so sure I am not overestimating this) being thrown around in the name of ‘expression’. Everything from giant-size teddy bears to giant-price chocolate fairs. Disney makes a killing on this day with everything under the sun being for sale. Hallmark probably gives a whole month before the event off for their employees to make up for the loss in energy levels. Every little candy store finds business and there are not enough flowers in the world to maker her/him happy. I can almost draw a cartoon on this with one newborn rose flower being told by its middle aged neighbor “Man you are screwed! It is truly a shame you will never see adulthood.”

As much as I can quote this entire essay with my ‘sense of humor’ it is true that people start behaving strangely come Valentine. While on the one hand there is so much cheer and joy, there is also an equal amount of gloom and despair. Drunks who up until the 13th and starting the 15th will have no love-based excuse to get hammered will see themselves turning green with booze in the name of ‘expression’.

“Why the *beep* are there so many hearts around on Valentines'?” yelled out a drunk from across the counter at a sleazy English bar to which the bartender replied “Well…because spleens would look pretty gross!”

Everyone survives this day one way or another. There is no denying that. We all can pretend that it does not matter. We all can go on oblivious of this “should be a National Holiday worldwide” special. But the fact remains that we all will face it in our ways. If some of us will find the courage to get a girl or a boy, some others will find ways to ignore the ones they already have. If some of us will cough up everything we have to please our beloved, someone else will make sure their disgust at this day is obvious. If some of us will successfully “get some” without having to beg, some others will do anything to just have a lousy little dance. As I said, we will all make it one way or the other.

So…how are you going to survive this Valentine?

ShaKri

 
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