A tale for Ambu - Part 2 of 2

Written on Tuesday, September 25, 2007 by ShaK

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‘The house Nandini used to live in was an ancestral mansion of her grandfather. It was so big that you could play football in it!’ continued ajji as the wide eyed doll in front of her listened in rapt attention.

‘But,’ she sighed before adding ‘since there were so many people in the house no one ever had enough space. Bringing up so many girls under one roof was no easy task. It still isn’t … your amma got lucky, Ambu.’

Ambu smiled back looking at her grandmother’s clear appreciation of Janaki. It seemed that anything that praised Janaki would always be well taken by Ambu. As an only child with her mother’s undivided attention, Ambu had never known what having a sibling meant. This tale seemed to challenge that knowledge.

‘The house had been preparing for the event for almost a month. Nandini’s brother was the sixth child and the latest one to be getting married. As you can imagine that palace like house now seemed quite tiny with almost a hundred people running around to make a thousand arrangements. Remember when you had been to Girija mami’s wedding?’

Ambu nodded vigorously in approval before adding ‘I wore a blue chudidaar and I ate sugar cakes and played with Rashmi all day, ajji…and…’

‘Aah!’ intervened ajji before Ambu took off on her own track ‘…that is how big this event also was. Men, women, children, all dressed in new clothes with kukuma on their foreheads briskly pacing in and out of the house. The bridegroom to be, Nandini’s brother, wore a white silk shirt and black cotton pants. It was like a magic land where everything was clean and everyone was shining. Women walked around in silk saris they had kept specially for this occasion. The scent of agarbatti hung strongly on the entire house.’

Ajji’s facial gestures had hit a high note at this point as Ambu sat gaping at the toothless mouth unfold the next set of events.

‘Hiding somewhere away from all this drama was our Nandini. Her mother had given her special instructions not to interfere with the event. She had, from definite experience of course, learnt that involving Nandini in something as important as this would mean absolute trouble. There was no way she would do anything without creating a mess. And the one thing her mother did not want that day was that – a mess of things.’

‘Was Nandini sad about this, ajji?’

‘No. She was actually relieved that she was not given work. This meant she could do whatever she wanted and eat all the food she liked!’

‘Food!’ exclaimed Ambu as if she had been hungry for ages. Fortunately the hand that had fed this eager mouth just minutes ago was somewhere in the kitchen washing dishes else she would have commented on Ambu’s reaction lacing it with affectionate sarcasm.

‘Oh yes! Every sweet you could possibly think of was there. Gulab Jamoon, Laadoo, Rasmalai, Peda, Champakali….oh…’ The old woman’s mouth began to gulp invisible delights just thinking of the latest contents of her story.

‘Then what happened, ajji?’ said Ambu bringing the old woman back from her reverie.

‘Oh! The sweets were the size of my hand, I say! What a feast it was and Nandini had no one to stop her from enjoying any of those. She went around the large back yard that was now filled with cooks dishing out the best they could make trying to choose what she wanted to eat first. The aroma of all the delicious food items could be smelt from miles away!

‘Just a few yards beyond the backyard, past the old store room, stood a grand mango tree that had been there ever since she could remember. Nandini always loved raw mangoes. It was her only major weakness when it came to fruit. She could never resist a good one when she saw it. Once she noticed no one was watching, she decided to attend to the sweets later and headed to the tree instead. But as she passed by the store room she found something quite odd about it that day. The store room was usually a place where they kept things like dried coconuts, old and useless vessels, pots, pans, broken dolls, her brother’s bicycles and other items of the house. It was always locked to make sure only family members used the room. But that day the door was slightly open and the locked seemed to have been broken! Curiosity got the better of Nandini and she approached the store room to investigate.

‘When she opened the door she was surprised to see that someone had then opened the inner door that led into the house. That door was never closed and so everyone had access to it. She yelled out ‘Hello! Hello!’ a few times but there was no response. She followed the trail through the store room back into the house to see what the matter was. Once inside she found herself in the room adjacent to the worship room where they kept jewels and other expensive material. A loud thud from that room caught her attention and Nandini instinctively picked up a thick dry-stick broom that was lying around.’

‘Oh no!’ said Ambu as she suddenly stopped massaging the old woman’s knee.

‘Oh yes! She tip toed her way into the room and what does she see! A man is filling a bag with all the jewels! Nandini was shocked to see this and she shouted ‘Thief! Thief! Help! Thief!’ when the man turned around and dashed at her!’

‘Oh no!’ said Ambu again with fear written large on the genuinely concerned face.

‘Oh yes! He must have been as tall as a coconut tree! He had dark, big moustaches the size of banana leafs and his arms were as large as pillars! He ran at her and shut her mouth immediately. The broom fell from her hands as he dragged her away from the small alley door through which one could see people passing by inside the house. She kept screaming under the strength of this rakshasa but there was no one to help her. She desperately kept kicking her legs and trying to get away from him. But it was no use.

‘Just as he was about to take her to the store room she noticed an open jar of turmeric powder that got used in the worship room. She snatched it from its location and flung it onto his face!’

‘Yeaaaaaah! Well done!’ screamed Ambu clapping her hands in Nandini’s support.

‘Oh yes! The thief immediately let go of the bag from the other hand but grabbed her throat instead! In the mad panic of yellow stained sting and the rage of having been attacked by a little girl he screamed a little and started pressing her neck! But Nandini was brave. Oh yes. She managed to open her mouth and bit into his large and ugly fingers as hard as she could. He yelled out in pain as she pushed him away and picked up whatever jewels came to her hand. Without a care in the world she then dashed into the house screaming at the top of her voice calling out ‘amma!amma!’ so that her mother may hear her.

‘But just as she was about to reach the main celebration area, she found her mother getting out of one of the rooms. She was shocked to see Nandini drenched in turmeric powder from head to toe with her hair and dress in an absolute mess! She immediately slapped Nandini hard on the face before the girl had a chance to tell her what happened.

‘“ Ah! So you have managed to ruin the day for me after all, isn’t it! Why can’t you just be a regular girl for a change, Nandini! What have I done to you that you do this to me every single time! Today is a big day for your brother and look at you. Playing with color and messing up the floors! Do you know how many hours I have spent cleaning them! Do you?” Nandini stood in mute silence clutching the pair of bangles she had managed to salvage from the thief. She let her mother scream herself crazy as she dragged Nandini to the bathroom and dumped cold water on the girl’s head. Nandini stood in absolute silence as her mother continued yelling at her the whole time.’

‘But why didn’t she tell the mother ajji? Not fair!’ debated a visibly upset Ambu.

‘No dear. She didn’t say a word. I don’t know why. But she just didn’t tell her mother anything. A few moments later her mother left her soaking wet and returned to her work in exhaustion. Nandini returned to her room and dried herself off. That was when she noticed the pair of bangles in her tightly closed fist. They were the ones her mother had specially gotten done. Nandini hid those bangles from everyone’s sight immediately. No one ever heard of those bangles ever again.’

‘But was the thief caught ajji? Was he punished?’

‘No dear. He was never found. Everyone realized of the theft a few hours later and a huge argument exploded about how it had happened. The whole celebration wore a damp look after that as they knew they had to go on regardless. Nandini’s mother was inconsolable at the loss of her precious jewels. Specially the bangles.

‘She wept as her relatives held her “What a day I have lived to see! Those were not even for me! They were for Nandini. I was going to give them to her when she got married. Oh Lord! What a dark day this is! Why have you done this to us?” but Nandini watched all this without a word from her mouth.’

‘Nandini was a bad girl. She didn’t tell her mommy. She made her cry,’ said Ambu before letting out the final yawn.

‘Yes dear. That’s why always be good to your mother. She loves you a lot and you should always listen to her, alright?’ said ajji before kissing the young one a good night.

The old woman stretched back on her bed as Ambu left the room. The ceiling fan rotated in silent appreciation of ajji’s latest story. A story about how a girl had wronged her own mother. But was it really the mother who had wronged the girl? Ajji didn’t know. But one can presume ajji never wanted to know either. She slowly pushed her vein-ridden yet soft hand under the pillow and pulled out a small wooden box. She opened it carefully and looked at a pair of gleaming bangles sitting pretty as ever inside it. She smiled to herself and murmured ‘I got them anyway, amma. I got them anyway’ as a tear formed and disappeared in her aged eyes.

..end of part 2..

..ShaKri..

*amma = a Kannada word for mother

A tale for Ambu - Part 2 of 2
© 2007, a short fiction by ShaKri

A tale for Ambu - Part 1 of 2

Written on Tuesday, September 25, 2007 by ShaK


IT HAD NOW BECOME A RITUAL without which little Ambu’s day was incomplete. The challenge here for Janaki, Ambu’s mother, was that there was nothing she could do to prevent it. So the tired woman would let Ambu hop into her haven after dinner with her pigtails dancing around her oily head of glowing hair. The only concern Janaki did have however, was making sure the old lady did not wear herself out with the incessant demand for fresh entertainment from Ambu each night. Nonetheless it happened without a pause. Each passing moon Ambu would fly out of the dinner table much to the giggle of her pot bellied father while Janaki would religiously yell out ‘Don’t bother ajji too much today! You have school tomorrow, Ambu!’

That the little one would have long switched herself off for Janaki’s orders was another story.

‘Ajji…I am here!’ Ambu grandly announced as her grandmother began pulling herself up from the bed she was now a part of. ‘Come…come…’ she said with the wide toothless grin of an infant as little Ambu jumped on the bed and helped her granny sit up against the wall. ‘I was waiting for my little Ambulika,’ she cackled as she kissed the little girl on her chubby cheeks by cupping the tiny chin.

‘My name is Ambika ajji! Not Ambulika!’ the child retorted with a mischievous complaint in her innocent tone as her granny nodded her head in agreement as if the girl was her master.

‘Okay okay. Madam Ambika Devi. What brings you to this old woman’s hut today?’ she said folding her palms in mock salutation.

‘Ambika Devi wants a story!’ the child yelled as the grandmother joined in on the laughter.’

‘Ambu! Keep it down! Your appa is working from home today!’ screamed Janaki from the kitchen over the crescendo of empty steel vessels and running tap water.

‘Ssssh…’ said the old woman to the child ‘…we don’t want amma to get upset, right? Go…close the door and come.’

As Ambu hopped off to the door, the grandmother started pressing her arthritic knees. ‘Ambu…get some of that oil on your way back, sweetheart. It is on the second row in that cupboard. Yellow colored bottle.’

Ambu did as instructed and soon found herself reluctantly massaging the old woman’s infinitely exhausted knees. Every tale had a price, she figured.

And this was when the old woman began her new story.

‘Long long ago, in a place called Ratnagiri lived a young girl called Nandini. She had five sisters and two brothers. She was the youngest of the group. All of twelve years old and as quick as a firecracker.’

‘Like me!’ yelled out Ambu at the reference to one of her favorite things in life – Deepavali festival.

‘Yes!’ laughed back the old lady, ‘like my little Ambu. The girl was very smart, very pretty and very naughty.’

‘Like me!’ said Ambu again as her hands worked on the joints that had given up on the old soul.

‘Yes baby. Like you indeed,’ continued the old woman. ‘Nandini was the apple of her father’s eye. Her father was a lawyer and a freedom fighter. He was a brave man who fought against the red faced English till they left our country. Despite being someone who was always struggling for money, he had managed to keep his family sailing happily.’

‘Why ajji? Was he poor?’ enquired Ambu who had now understood the concept of money. If not anything else she knew not having it was a bad thing.

‘No Ambu,’ responded her granny, ‘he was not poor. But he was not rich either. He was in the middle. He made just enough money to feed his eight children and wife. This never stopped them from being one happy family. These were times when money wasn’t everything. Happiness meant home. Joy meant being in it through good and bad.

‘So he would work day and night for them. All of them were just a year or two apart from one another in age except little Nandini. She was eight years younger than her seventh sibling – her sister. Being the youngest one means a lot of pampering. And Nandini was no exception to this! Everyone made sure the young one got everything she ever wanted even if it meant making compromises. Nandini was the queen of the group.’

‘She sounds cool,’ said Ambu with wonder struck eyes at the very concept of such living. Ambu was an only child so such amazement was quite expected.

‘Yes. She was. But Nandini’s mother always dealt her with a strong hand. Her mother was a disciplined woman,’ ajji went on with a dramatic frown to keep the entertainment factor alive. ‘She did not believe in girls behaving like boys or the other way around. She was old fashioned and liked it her way. But seeing Nandini slowly becoming a tomboy with a demanding nature, she always kept an eye on her. The last thing she wanted was for Nandini to get hurt. Yet Nandini was the rebel. Always had her way with things since she had a lot of support from her father. A fact her mother was never pleased with.

‘“Look at her!” she would often say half-jokingly “who on earth will marry this little beast! Nothing about her is girl-like. She should have been born a boy! At least then we could get some dowry at least! We should just get her some pants and change her name to Nanda Kishore. No one would know the difference.” and would stare at the brat-like girl pouting in the corner after her latest episode of something or the other.’

‘Nandini was so bad to her mommy,’ observed Ambu as she related herself with the character in the story with Janaki on her mind.

‘No, dear’ chuckled ajji ‘Nandini loved her mother. But she liked teasing her just to see her response. It was a game they played with each other without ever confessing it. Ever.’

‘Oh OK…’ said Ambu not knowing what other remark would make sense.

‘Nandini always made sure she never did anything to hurt herself since she knew it would hurt her mother more. But the night her brother was about to get engaged, little did she know that is exactly what she would end up doing. Hurt her own self…and hurt her mother even more.’

‘Oh no! What happened ajji? Did she die? What happened to her mother?’

‘Oh no no!’ responded ajji wondering how the prospect of death always brightens the dullest of children ‘…but Nandini did something that she would remember for the rest of her life. And so would her mother.’

Ambu was now completely engrossed into the tale.

..End of Part 1..

*ajji = a word in Kannada that stands for 'grandmother'
*appa = a word in Kannada that stands for 'father'


A tale for Ambu - Part 1 of 2

© 2007, a short fiction by ShaKri

The 100th Sin

Written on Saturday, September 22, 2007 by ShaK

The 100th Sin
a short fiction by ShaKri


The lukewarm milk, as she had always preferred it, had now dozed off into its usual stillness. Whining about Nandini’s infinitely exhausting routine of not finishing her bedtime drink, was her mother. It had been almost half an hour past the little one’s bedtime when the woman came barging in as always.

‘So you are repeating the same bloody stunt again, is it?’ she screamed at the dwarfed silhouette that sat hunched scribbling into a diary. ‘You and your stupid drawings. I will burn that damn thing one day and maybe then I can get rid of you once and for all.’

She approached the child menacingly with a glare that had always haunted Nandini.

‘Ma no! Ma please no ma!’ she screamed back as the adult struck an instant battle with the young pair of hands for the leather-bound rectangle.

‘Shut up!’ the woman continued ‘I am going to take this with me today and pour kerosene on it and burn out all the bullshit you keep doodling in it. Why? Shall I do that? Will he come and rescue you then? Tell me! Come on!’

The tussle suddenly erupted into a bizarre bitterness and the book went flying out of their hands landing onto the vacuumed carpet of the dimly lit bedroom.

'Now listen to me,’ the woman hissed in assertive command as she twisted the young wrists that were already throbbing in excruciating pain. ‘I see you with that bloody book one more time I am going to send you to boarding school where they will make you work like a dog and eat from the garbage. Do you want that? Tell me! Should I do that?’

‘No ma…please no ma…don’t ma…please…’ Nandini wept as her mother smacked her face a few times and watched the tears flow down from the puffy cheeks of her wailing child. A perverse sense of satisfaction engulfed the woman’s eyes.

Silence prevailed the next few moments as the child wept in lonesome misery. ‘You are a bad omen,’ she finally said. Her tone was cold and direct. ‘Every thing you have brought with you the last seven years has been nothing but misfortune. Had I known this I would have given you up the moment you were born.’

She then let go of the girl’s hands and stomped out of the room clutching the glass of milk. She switched off the light in the room and slammed the door shut behind her before yelling back ‘Now stop crying and go to bed!’

Nandini continued to weep in silence as hushed voices emerged from outside.

‘What happened this time?’ said a familiar male voice.

‘What do you think? The usual,’ responded the mother opening the tap in the kitchen sink. ‘The little bitch is at it again. What else can she do except make my life a living hell! Same old drawings of whatever the hell it is she draws about. Sick of it…’

‘Relax…its going to be OK…she is only seven. Its just meaningless dribble. It’s a phase!’ the male voice seemed to attempt soothing the enraged woman.

‘Oh shut up. You don’t know anything. Now help me with these dishes and let’s go to bed. I have to get up early tomorrow and take that thing to school again.’

Nandini’s gasps and moans loomed large across the blackened room that shared the tiny one’s grief. She sniffed a few times before getting off the chair and stumbling her way to the light switch in the room. She miraculously found it quickly and flicked it back on. She then walked towards the book wiping her tears and picked it up.

Silence enveloped the tension that had exploded a few moments ago. What had seemed like an unending war of words and screams now felt like a valley that hadn’t heard a human voice in years. The drip of the tap in the kitchen was the only thing now audible in the emptiness that was Nandini’s life.

She walked up to the table and sat down to write again. Her wrists were aching but she knew had to write what she was about to. She had been given clear instructions.

She opened the last page of the book that contained several tiny lines sitting one next to another in neat rows. Some of them were dark and intensely marked while others were slanted and written when she had been in more painful scenarios. She flew her slender hand all the way to the end of the row sets and etched a new entry clutching the pencil in between her fingers.She then closed her diary and folded her hands in a silent prayer murmuring something to herself.

It was past 2am when he finally arrived. Nandini had been so tired from the night’s events that she had completely forgotten to switch off the bedroom light. The flick of the light button awoke her from her deep slumber.

She rubbed her eyes in quiet confidence and pouted at the glowing silhouette that she had gotten so familiar with over the years.

‘Blue uncle?’ she whispered as he had instructed her to refer to him.

‘Yes my dear,’ he said as he approached her bed. ‘I got your message,’ he said as he picked up her diary and flipped to the last page.

‘Uncle..uncle…’ she began enthusiastically as he sat down next to her.

‘What is it, dear?’ he said in that ever soothing voice Nandini had fallen in love with.

‘Ma hit me again today,’ the little one squeaked with a complaint in her tone.

‘I know baby,’ he said as he held her tiny hands in his. ‘Let us see what happened here.’

‘Aaah!’ Nandini let out a hushed scream as he caressed her wrists gently back to health.

‘Magic uncle…’ she said and giggled as she noticed the red streaks disappear. ‘uncle…how is pa?’ she asked him with concern in her eyes.

‘He is fine. He misses you. He says he loves you very much.’

They sat in silence for a few moments as he counted the lines on the last page of the child’s diary.

‘Blue uncle…can I see him? Ma says I was two years old when I killed him.’

‘No sweetheart,’ said the voice caressing Nandini’s tired locks, ‘His time had come. So I called for him. You had nothing to do with it. I explained this to him as well. He knows. So don’t ever say that again, okay?’

‘Ma hates me blue uncle…she thinks I killed him. But I love her…’ the child continued as she looked into the peaceful eyes of the only friend she had ever known.

‘Yes. I love her too, child. Which is why I have to take her with me tomorrow.’

‘Oh…’ Nandini gasped at this statement. ‘…is it a hundred already?’

‘Yes. I had promised you a hundred. So now I have to keep my promise, right?’

‘Yes,’ responded the little one with her voice brimming with innocence.

‘But don’t worry. I will make her sister, your Paachi aunty, take care of you. You will love it there. You like Paachi aunty’s dog Jimmy right?’

‘Hmm…yeah…’ said Nandini as she played with his shining flute.

‘But always remember, dear’ he continued. ‘If you want to keep seeing me…you should never tell anyone about it okay? Don’t forget that. Will blue uncle’s little Nandini remember that?’

‘Yeah…’ she said looking at his blue skin that shone even in the dark and scratching her puffed cheeks in short yawns.

‘Good girl. Now go to sleep, baby. It’s late,’ he said getting up. ‘Tomorrow make sure you cross the road near the school exactly three finger counts later, ok?’

‘Okay…’ she said as he counted her tiny fingers for her with his hands. ‘One…two…three.’

They both laughed at this.

He kissed her on the forehead and walked away into the darkness once again with his saffron robe following his swift legs. She sat staring at the black that surrounded her for a few minutes before drowning into sleep again.

..ShaKri..

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